Ara Delle's

i have split personality. deal with it.

arachdiat — Wed, 30 Dec 2009 07:15:55 +0000

Bonjour.

Multiple mannerisms, attitudes and beliefs that are not similar to each other

unexplainable headaches and other body pains

distortion or loss of subjective time

depersonalization

derealization

severe memory loss

depression

flashbacks of abuse/trauma

unexplainable phobias

sudden anger without a justified cause

lack of intimacy and personal connections

frequent panic/anxiety attacks

auditory hallucinations of the personalities inside their mind

the ones that i highlighted with ze colour ORANGE is basically the one that im dealing with. sometimes it cannot be help. this is also known as alter egos or alters. at times i’ll be super effin mad but in a blink of an eye ill be the sweetest girl you’ve ever met. call me crazy. i know in not. im just different. panic attacks? let me tell you this. it hurts alot. it feels like being stabbed. unexplainable body pains? yeah. i do get it alot. and i wonder why boleh tiba2 sakit. well, some of my friends had dealt with my other half. i am not playing or fooling around. i am serious. thank you. just to make things straight. i am not crazy. just sick.

love.
RARA

im Danial’s.

arachdiat — Mon, 28 Dec 2009 17:14:52 +0000

RARA DELLE DANIAL
20/12/2009.

my fight is your fight.

arachdiat — Mon, 28 Dec 2009 16:50:28 +0000

Bonjour.

1 – im deadly tired.
2 – my eyebags sangat comel eh. NOT.
3 – tomorrow maybe tak dapat jumpa Baby. ( u tau tak i miss you gila babi? )
4- those blood sucker insects memang saja nak hancurkan my body kan?
5 – i wanna meet my sayang. I WANNA WANNA WANNA SEE YOU.

Hello zhere readers. im back and im super tired. Ze flight was ok till ze stewardess raised up her arms. ya allah. i know that you’re working 4 sectors. oh cmon, take the iniative to spray abit of perfume. you stink ok? no offence. and Bedot is with me right now. her friend. Saiful i think. babbling around about his gf being like a crocodile. ” sekejap nya timbul eh. sekejap nya tenggelam. paham sik kitak? ” haha. i was like. ok Saiful ok. chill man. if ze girl acts weird. ask her. sort things out.
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Mummy is with me right now. well, as usual beguling kanan kiri and listening to Saiful mebebel. im not in eff mood because.

so yeah. thats why im not in a eff mood. cheer me up please? pretty please? shoppatherapy. i neeed to shop till i drop. it gives me pleasure and satisfaction (:
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whats my plan for tomorrow? Ooopsy. i mean today. well, 1st of all me and bedot have to teman mummu pay ze bills and ze car. then off we go to take iman’s school uniform. the other day mum sent it for alteration. and then, maybe having our lunch or early dinner around subang. or insyaallah makan at Fatty Crab. craving for it. the nasik goreng,roti bakar, AND lets not forgt the chicken wings! to die for! mouth watering! around 8 as usual la kan. 333 with ze girls (: i misss you Lyn et Shab.
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Grandma Lily loved the kek lapis i made for Aunty Merin. everyone was like i want some. i want some. and i told them that ze cake is for Aunty Merin. sorrry la famillia. and sayang, i bagi ze cake ikhlas ok? i don’t want you to pay for it. i love love la love you.
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love,
RARA DANIAL.

kikis jak.

arachdiat — Sun, 27 Dec 2009 07:52:51 +0000

Bonjour!

The wedding was fun. tiring tho. that stupid woman who happens to be my ex aunty sangat bingit ehkau ingat kau siapa wei? kau dulu bukan main lagi baik with my granparents kan? bukan main kau bangga kau kahwin with anak Datuk Sri Safri kan? now? u talk bad about my family? u layan my mum mcm babi dekat wedding? LIKE OMG. THANK GOD ALLAH TUNJUK BELANG KAU DEKAT KITORANG OK. IM CRYING BADLY, sambung later.

can you just thank me and get over it?

arachdiat — Fri, 25 Dec 2009 17:27:29 +0000

Bonjour!

Oh My Gee. Today sangat tiring eh. Oops. i mean yesterday. 25th. slept around 630am. woke up around 10. Daddy told me to packed my baju semua. I was like what! cakap tak jadi balik. -__-” so yeah. jadi balik Kuching. sampai around 440 plus i think. then Dada terus bawak pergi rumah Nek Su Atok. Aunty Ruby nak kahwin! hahaha. and like omg? whats wrong with you? kena brainwash dengan si keding eh? i pity you. i pity you and the whole family. habis la duit kau Uncle Jeff. kena kikis dgn si Keding. i have 2 words for you. PADAN MUKA. haha. me and Bedot beguling2 depan pelamin. sangat best. (:
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then me,mummy and bedot pergi to ze airport again. sebab nak fetch iman and daddy. while waiting, saya makan dekat airport. nyummeyhh (: me and bedotcamwhoring as usual la kan. anna baru call. pokpekpokpek! lepas tuuu. ” BABBBEEEE, TOPUPKAN AKU ” siot kan? so i told her besok pagi reloadkan. nasib baik aku syg kau. (: now me onlining in the tv room. sangat sejuk eh! bedot pun online. like 6 kaki away from me. haha. so syg called and cakap dia nak balik lambat. i was like. yeah. ok. sure. tapi dalam hati. ” sure, lambat takpe. jgn tak balik je ” haha.
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so yeah. mum knows about me and Danny. and and and and. Mum and Dann pergi stalk my page at Fb. ok. maluuuu ok? *mengada*. and and and and and. MUM LIKES ME. haha. sambil mandi sambil senyum eh tadi. gembira yang tak terhingga. *over* i love you Aunty Merin. this monday. monday morning saya buat kek lapis Aunty ok?
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me and Bedot tidur dalam tv room la as usual. sudah menjadi routine eh. lepas tu tak reti nak tidur. tomorrow WE have to wake up at 9! then hantar Bedot to Dada’s house. then me and mummy nak pergi Saloon. Granpa’s book launching remember? at Merdeka Palace. now waiting for Dann to balik rumah. YA ALLAH. saya bosan. cepat balik. dah la i misss you to the very max dah ni. tee hee.
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i know you love me Mohd Danial Zainudin.

Rara loves Danny too (:

Rara Danial.

Up Up You Go.

arachdiat — Fri, 25 Dec 2009 02:25:04 +0000

Good Morning to everybody.

Slept around 630am. sorry i can’t teman u more than that sayang. ya allah. so effin sleepy you know. thanks for understanding. i’ll be away for 2days. 2days aint that long but, ill be at kuching and ntah berapa ratus ribu kilometer from here. if the distance is like klia to rumah. i won’t miss you as much as i will miss you. get it? so this is the 1st time ill be dealing with you not around for 2days. YE LA. KITA KAN DAH COUPLE. IN A RELATIONSHIP. GIRLFRIEND BOYFRIEND. masa balik the other week belum ada apa apa lagi kan. lets just hope no tears eh. i love you (:
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ahhh Lyn. sangat style apa yang anda tulis di blog anda. Me likey Lyn! Me likey! (:
keep up the good work. if oranga cakap i menganjing you or you menganjing i. TAK APA. let them. we menganjing each other and ATLEAST kita honest towards each other. well, that is what true friends buat. well, bukan true friends la. lets just say. you’re more than a friend. i treat ypu like Sister. and you treat me like Sister. thats the only thing SHE doesnt have. i love you (:
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To Shabby my sayang. im sorry i can’t make it tonight. Daddy bagitahu last minute plan pasal nak balik. wanted to suprise everyone esp Danny. tengok tengok, jadi balik. AHHHH. sangat stress eh Shabby. i missss you Shab. i promise i balik nanti i buat Chicken In The Foil and Lasagna for you k? and insyaallah i akan buat Oxtail Stew (:
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stats for zeze blog meningkat plak kan pagi2 buta macamni. thank you for reading (:

love,
Rara Danial.

i’ll stop the world and melt with you.

arachdiat — Thu, 24 Dec 2009 15:00:31 +0000

RARA + DANNS
=
RANNS

christmast eve.

arachdiat — Thu, 24 Dec 2009 12:02:49 +0000

Its raining elephants and whales outside and how i wish i have a bowl of mushroom soup from Uno. hmm. that would be nice. Im in my room. waiting for sayang to text me. he’s on his way to Curve for dinner. with his friends ofcourse. so sorry sebab i cant go with you. Nevermind. tonight you single la ok? ( : Oh yeah. My sayang calls me MANJA. yea. i know. pelik funny and like okkk. but i like it. nahh. i love it. so yeah. Rara loves Danny.
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my finger nails sangat style eh! TERQUOISE. haha. and dots of red. OMG. im dying. DYING i tell you. i am deadly bored. I WANT TO EAT RICE MCDONALS BURGERKING CARLSJR SUSHIKING TONYROMA’S ITALIANNIES STARBUCKS . sadly i cant. diet wei, diet. if u wanna be fat. go ahead. dont go and merengek that you are fat. haih.
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i am still a cow. and will always be one. I AM COCO ze COW. nobody panggil me by the name Coco anymore. haha. randommmm.
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suddenly, i missssed Violet. lets let her out tonight. shall we?
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RAIOLET.

ooo.

arachdiat — Wed, 23 Dec 2009 10:58:13 +0000

Bonjour.

seriously not in a freaking mood right now. maybe sebab tidur to0 lama and bangun tidur ada ONE msg from sayang. sabar ja la. well pagi tadi baby ambil me at home then pergi breakfast at Nirwana. betul kan i spell syg? we talked semua. gelak gelak. pandang kiri kanan. haha. it was funand funny and pelik sikit kot ( : but i a good way. lepas breakfast terus balik. Dann lepak at my house jap. cakap2 semua. Lyn called ckp nak dtg rumah sebab malas nak pg u knw where. we played Twister. 1st round dah kalah. then lyn et danns main main main. Lyn menang ( : bahahaha. better luck next time love.
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bangun bangun tidur hujan. thunders -_-” i hate thunders. then macam sangat pening. syg being lovey dovey pun tak ada mood ni. so please just ignore me. im sorry. you know how much i love you kan? just not in a mood. sorry Mohd Danial Zainudin.

i love you. you are my sayang, love, garfield, pembuli, and rabbit besar. tee hee.
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OMG. HOW COULD YOU?

what’s up with you? kau da memang tak sayang mulut is it? telling people how bad my friend is? bodoh, kau tak cermin diri ka? kau ingat kau da sangat Up to the very max, kau boleh suka suka buat your friends like that? babi la kan. kau boleh mati la dengan laki kau. you,who acts very nice infront of us turns out to be a very babi person. sumpah, i wanted to cried too. but fikir balik. my tears are not worth falling for you. Boo hoo. and excuse me? br sekarang nak show this and that buyin branded stuffs? like hello, sangat last season eh kau? kesian. ehhh. geram. well, keep on using my friend’s name for yr escapation for you and your bf. just wait love, you will get it from us. all of us. (:
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i hate it when syg have this way of saying his sorry in the sincerest way. making me feel guilty for tak ada mood sebab benda kecik. like seriously. my mood swing is slowly changing. pandai eh u sayang? senang ja you control my moodness. hebat ( : i love you Mohd Danial Zainudin.
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eh,i feel today’s post sangat panjang. but im tired. like banyak lagi bah have to write. nevermind. lain kali je la kan? ph wait. mummy baru panggil

mummy : wahhhhh, kitak ada vicks for nose sik?
rara : ahh. wait ah.
mummy : okok * bunyi hidung sgt sumbat*
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aww. kesian mama. the inhaler tak ada. so yeah. what was i saying? ahh. nevermind. next time ill update terus blog ok? tak kisah la. sehari 10 kali saya blog. lagi anda semua suka kan? stalk sampai lebam wei.

syg just text tanya i guling2 lagi ke tak. nak reply. but WAIT eh syg. blogging jap. tee hee.
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lots of love,
Rara Delle.

eilynsays what? teehee.

arachdiat — Sun, 20 Dec 2009 12:24:29 +0000

Bonjour!

Thanks to u lyn, i dah stalk u punya blog ja. Dahla the whole day tak online. online la. guna phone. bodoh ja. Amboi lyn, bukan main semangat jogging. bahaha. sorry i tak ada. sumpah tidur mati. and u now it right bila i tak answer my phone memang pancit. teehee. sorry love.

Bahaha, and yeah lyn, I TOLD YOU SO. *mukajahat* . alaaa, but chill ah. you have us bah. esp shab and me. and. u know who (: and yea, Koko sgt jahat but bagus ajar kita shisha mcm apa. tak pernah2 i tingtong seawal tu eh (:
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waiting for Dann to pick me up. then pergi ambil Shab then pergi crash lyn’s house. nak kejutkan dia. kami kan kawan yang sangat baik. and lyn kan tuan puteri. orang kena datang rumah kejutkan -__-”
teehee. i love you Reezlyn (: malam ni lepak mcm biasa la kan. then pergi lepak at Lyn’s house.

xoxo,
Rara Omelette (: